Jackboots and Bubblegum

Pairing: Ensemble (Spike, Xander, Angelus)

Rating: NC-17 overall

Summary: Spike fights himself and his family in his struggle to atone. But can he save what he values most?

A/N: So, once upon a time, I wrote this story. It was a re-do of Buffy but with Spike instead of Angel as the souled vampire. Maybe some of you guys remember it from back in the day? I'm sorry for the enormously, embarrassingly long wait between chapters. Hopefully, now that I've wrestled the story back on track, it will continue to chug along to its conclusion. Thanks so much to my beta, anxiety_junkie who fought the good fight against her RL in order to polish this chapter into something resembling a good read.

Previous chapters can be found in my memories or maxing and relaxing in the tags.

( Soon, all of this humanity and grace will be nothing but a bad memory... )

Chapter 21

Characters: Ensemble

Rating: NC-17 overall

Summary: Spike fights himself and his family in his struggle to atone. But can he save what he values most?

A/N: Beta'ed as ever by the lovely noandwhere. Con/crit welcomed (and jolly well solicited) on my characterization. It's been ages since I've written Angelus. A side note for the persnickety-yes, I know this actually takes place before "The Mummy" was released. But it's a nice line so let's just pretend, mkay?

Previous chapters can be found in my memories or hanging about in the tags.

( Chapter 18 )

Chapter 19

Characters: Ensemble

Rating: NC-17 overall

Summary: A vampire with a soul comes to Sunnydale to help The Slayer. Can a demon ever atone?

A/N: Thanks to my ever watchful (and adorable) beta, noandwhere for her usual superb work and ninja-like speed! Written for tamingthemuse prompt #102-Thus spake Zarathustra. Includes dialogue from the BtVS S1 episode "Prophecy Girl" and Nietzsche's Thus Spake Zarathustra. Previous Parts founds here or in tags.

( I don't need a vehicle to be in denial )

Chapter 17

Characters: Buffy, Xander, OC

Rating: NC-17 overall

Summary: A vampire with a soul comes to Sunnydale to help The Slayer. Can a demon ever atone?

A/N: As always, beta'ed by the incredible noandwhere and written for tamingthemuse prompt 97-delirious. Previous chapters here or going backwards in the tags.


( No capades of any kind! )

Chapter 15

Characters: Spike, Buffy, Joyce

Rating: NC-17 overall

Summary: A vampire with a soul comes to Sunnydale to help The Slayer. Can a demon ever atone?

A/N: As always, a tip of my hat to noandwhere who greatly contributes to the non-suckiness of this fic in general. Written for tamingthemuse prompt #92-center.

Previously...

( “Buffy?” A sweet voice rang through the house. “Honey? Are you home?” )

Chapter 13

Characters: Spike, Giles, Darla, OC

Rating:  NC-17 overall

Summary: A vampire with a soul comes to Sunnydale to help The Slayer. Can a demon ever atone?

A/N: Written for tamingthemuse prompt 84-suspension of disbelief. Thanks to my betas noandwhere and kidcyclone for their help. I  hope I made this clear before, but if I haven't, this is not going to be an episode by episode rewrite. I am following the general progression of events and portraying the characters as canonically (I hope!) as is possible for such a radical change. So, if this story seems like it skips around a bit...it does. I just don't have seven years worth of interest in this project, yanno? :)

Previously:

“No place for innocence here,” Spike murmured, as he stared out at familiar amber eyes. “Evil remains and so long as it lurks in the secret places of the heart, utopia is only the shadow of a dream.”

Darla’s eyes caught him, held him fast for a moment. He could feel the stretch and swell inside him, a demon’s yearning for the simplicity of family, feeding and fucking. She smiled at him through the foggy tempered glass, face radiant with malicious glee.

“Hawthorne,” Giles finally responded. “Rather poetic, in a grim sort of…” He trailed off, gazing in bewilderment around the empty room.



Chapter 11

Pairing: Spike/Xander- Spike, OC friendship

Rating: NC-17 overall

Summary: A vampire with a soul comes to Sunnydale to help The Slayer. Can a demon ever atone?

A/N: Thanks so much to my beta, noandwhere! Written in response to tamingthemuse prompt # 77-rocking the boat. Previous Chapters can be found in my memories.




Chapter 9

Pairing: None this chapter (Spike, Giles)

Rating: NC-17 overall

Summary: A vampire with a soul comes to Sunnydale to help The Slayer. Can a demon ever atone?

A/N: Beta'd by the wonderful noandwhere who really is always available and can I mention how much I love that? 1:00 a.m. EST here and whatever time it is in her neck of the woods and she's got it back to me in twenty minutes. What a champ! Oh, also written for tamingthemuse prompt 74-nowhere.



Chapter 7

Pairing: Spike/Xander

Rating: NC-17 overall

Summary: A vampire with a soul comes to Sunnydale to help The Slayer. Can a demon ever atone?

A/N: beta'd by noandwhere. A tiny bit of dialogue taken from BtVS S1 episode "The Harvest".




Chapter 5

Pairing: Implied Spike/Dru, Spike/Xander pre-slash

Rating: NC-17 overall

Summary: A vampire with a soul comes to Sunnydale to help The Slayer. Can a demon ever atone?

A/N: Thanks again to noandwhere for her wonderful beta work. I'm pretty sure there's no dialogue in here from any episode, but it is based on "The Harvest", so if you see anything you recognize, that's where it came from.



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